Haven't updated this blog for a few months now. Been quite lazy, hehe. Anyway, below is a rough poem I wrote earlier. Not really a good one, but it's been years since I've really written anything. I hope it's decent enough for a restart. If not, well you can't do anything anyway since this is my blog. Hehe
Understand this.
I want you more than I have ever wanted anyone.
I crave you more that I have ever thought possible to crave someone.
Your mere existence engulfs me with wanton fervor that drowns away reason
However, I cannot allow myself to embrace this carnal desire
That will take me down a path of both ecstasy and pain
An adulterous web I am neither strong nor willing to recover from.
Monday, November 24, 2008
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Picture and messages
Showed my face picture for just 1 day in g4m and I already got more messages compared to about 2 months of facelessness.
It's nice to know that there are those who think I look good enough to be sent message. However, people should really know how to send more than his and hellos. And what's up with people asking for more picture when they themselves have like 2 or none at all?
It's nice to know that there are those who think I look good enough to be sent message. However, people should really know how to send more than his and hellos. And what's up with people asking for more picture when they themselves have like 2 or none at all?
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Common misconceptions
For some reason, people almost always think I'm Chinese. When I tell them I'm not, the next thing they ask is "sigurado ka? ano apelyido mo?" There are also those who don't ask anymore. Iniintsik na lang ako basta.
Another misconception is that I'm rich. This is related to the above. Here in the Philippines, parang tingin ng tao lahat ng Chinese mayaman. Pinoy na lang yata ang mahirap dito.
The third, which is also related to 1 and 2, is that I'm from La Salle. Pag sinasabi ko yung school ko, parang di makapaniwala yung nagtatanong. Di ko alam kung maiinsulto ba ko na tingin ng iba e di ako papasa ng UP, o matutuwa na di ako mukhang pobre. LOL.
Another misconception is that I'm rich. This is related to the above. Here in the Philippines, parang tingin ng tao lahat ng Chinese mayaman. Pinoy na lang yata ang mahirap dito.
The third, which is also related to 1 and 2, is that I'm from La Salle. Pag sinasabi ko yung school ko, parang di makapaniwala yung nagtatanong. Di ko alam kung maiinsulto ba ko na tingin ng iba e di ako papasa ng UP, o matutuwa na di ako mukhang pobre. LOL.
Saturday, May 10, 2008
cruising?
Was walking around the other night and saw some very cute guys. Some were obviously gay/bi as they looked at me straight in the eye as we passed each other. Some I have the feeling like I'm going to have my ass kicked big time. LOL. I really need to have my gaydar upgraded.
Oh and there was also a very attractive girl that looked at me in the eye when I passed her table at Starbucks. I think she was even smiling a bit. Or maybe I was just imagining it. Anyway, the other 2 guys she was with were very hot!
Passed by a bar with people dancing. Most of the patrons were guys and definitely gays. I wanted to go in and enjoy the dance music but the place was full. (Glass wall so I can easily see if there are any vacant tables) . Plus I chickened out. Haven't really gone inside a bar alone. And frankly, I have no clue how to conduct myself in such a situation. Would I look stupid being alone on my table when the other tables are jam packed?
Anyway, I noticed that there are more people who look at me when I wear long sleeved polo shirts with the top 2 buttons undone than compared to say when I'm just wearing t-shirt and jeans. I don't know if I look better that way. I do know however that I like the attention! But please, people should approach and say hi. I'm just too shy to make the first move.
Oh and there was also a very attractive girl that looked at me in the eye when I passed her table at Starbucks. I think she was even smiling a bit. Or maybe I was just imagining it. Anyway, the other 2 guys she was with were very hot!
Passed by a bar with people dancing. Most of the patrons were guys and definitely gays. I wanted to go in and enjoy the dance music but the place was full. (Glass wall so I can easily see if there are any vacant tables) . Plus I chickened out. Haven't really gone inside a bar alone. And frankly, I have no clue how to conduct myself in such a situation. Would I look stupid being alone on my table when the other tables are jam packed?
Anyway, I noticed that there are more people who look at me when I wear long sleeved polo shirts with the top 2 buttons undone than compared to say when I'm just wearing t-shirt and jeans. I don't know if I look better that way. I do know however that I like the attention! But please, people should approach and say hi. I'm just too shy to make the first move.
Sunday, April 20, 2008
I'm Superman!
So I took this online quiz just to see which superhero I am. And the result is pretty cool since I am really a Superman fan. I don't like being Hulk though. The big green, angry and stupid (well apparently he's smart in the comics now) character just doesn't appeal to me.
Green Lantern is also pretty cool with his power ring that lets the wielder conjure anything he wants.
Your results:
You are Superman
Click here to take the "Which Superhero am I?" quiz...
Green Lantern is also pretty cool with his power ring that lets the wielder conjure anything he wants.
Your results:
You are Superman
| You are mild-mannered, good, strong and you love to help others.  |
Click here to take the "Which Superhero am I?" quiz...
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Latter Days
Watched Latter Days tonight. A gay film with a Mormon and a pretty boy as lead. And it's just great!
It has this lightness and innocence, and sweetness in it but still manages to raise sensitive questions: does homosexuality have a (good) place in religion? Is it wrong to be gay? Can God forgive gay people?
The line that struck me was "God can forgive us for what we have done, but not for what we are." "Are" here referring to being gay.
As a Catholic, I've been taught that it is wrong to be gay. We have the biblical story of Sodom and Gomora, of how the people were punished. But we also have stories of a compassionate and loving and forgiving God.
These conflicting ideas have confused me for years. And they continue to do so.
I wonder, when will I learn the truth? Or has the truth already been taught to me, and I'm just too dense to believe and understand?
It has this lightness and innocence, and sweetness in it but still manages to raise sensitive questions: does homosexuality have a (good) place in religion? Is it wrong to be gay? Can God forgive gay people?
The line that struck me was "God can forgive us for what we have done, but not for what we are." "Are" here referring to being gay.
As a Catholic, I've been taught that it is wrong to be gay. We have the biblical story of Sodom and Gomora, of how the people were punished. But we also have stories of a compassionate and loving and forgiving God.
These conflicting ideas have confused me for years. And they continue to do so.
I wonder, when will I learn the truth? Or has the truth already been taught to me, and I'm just too dense to believe and understand?
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Indecisiveness
A friend told me that I am too indecisive. I would want one thing one minute, and then totally change my mind after a few.
There are also times that I just don't want to decide. That I just want to go with the flow; or be told what to do, and then shrug my head in irritation if I don't agree. Is that typical of being the youngest child?
Looking back, I never really had to make a huge decision. For some reason, everything seems to have just been handed down to me. Never forced. From school to work, things just fell into their proper places.
I'm not complaining. I'm actually grateful to have been given so much. But things going my way so easily have been double-edged.
I've been so used to things going my way that I have a tendency to take not only things for granted, but also people. I feel that I don't know how to value what I got. And that one day, I will certainly regret it.
There are also times that I just don't want to decide. That I just want to go with the flow; or be told what to do, and then shrug my head in irritation if I don't agree. Is that typical of being the youngest child?
Looking back, I never really had to make a huge decision. For some reason, everything seems to have just been handed down to me. Never forced. From school to work, things just fell into their proper places.
I'm not complaining. I'm actually grateful to have been given so much. But things going my way so easily have been double-edged.
I've been so used to things going my way that I have a tendency to take not only things for granted, but also people. I feel that I don't know how to value what I got. And that one day, I will certainly regret it.
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